I can't believe I'm still alive. My exams left me phisically and mentally smashed. Yesterday I was so unvelievable tired after school that I decided I was going to take a nap. Well, I took a 4-hour nap, but it felt so good. I'm going to fail Math and Economics. I DON'T deserve to fail Economics. I mean, I got a 4, it's unfair. If I don't pass next term I'm gonna kill myself, because then I'd have to study in summer and that's something I absolutely HATE. I'm getting a Math tutor for next term, so I hope I can get along with that fucking useless subject. Thank god exams are over. I only want to rest and listen to positive music from now on. ^_^

I went to Madrid Rock this afternoon. That place is really crowded since they announced they were closing. And when I say crowded I mean CROWDED. So I decided to go early [around 3:30 pm] to see if I could finally check the place without having to fight with 1627 crazy people looking through the shelves to get a CD. I was right, and there weren't many people there. I went to the DVD section to see if I could find Sheryl Crow's C'mon America but alphabetical order isn't so alphabetical after three weeks of lower prices, so even though I wasn't in the mood to check the whole section to see if I was lucky, I did it, and returned empty-handed, but found two of my all-time favorite films: Donnie Darko and My Life Without Me. €7.16 each. I'm so happy! lol. My feet were almost dead at this point, and didn't want to check the whole CD section, so I decided to pay for my stuff and go home. And of course, *my* cashier was there. ^_^ I'm a crush whore, I can't help it. I've had a crush on this guy for months and I always pay in his cash desk when I go to Madrid Rock. I bet you wouldn't think he's cute if you saw him. He's very skinny and has this Beatles-ish hairdo I love, and really long sideburns [no, he's not a carbon copy of me lol] I know I'm a little special for my real-life crushes. lol. But this time I was brave enough to tell him something more than "hello" and "goodbye". It was a really short and random conversation, but I did talk to him. While I was paying for my DVDs, I told him "hey, do you know if you're gonna do anything to protest for the store's closing?" and he said "no, not at the moment... Well, actually I have no idea" and he smiled [I thought I was going to melt lol] I also asked if he knew when they were closing and he said his bosses haven't told them about it and he smiled and said "sorry" with a lovely expression on his face [awww]. So then I said "ok, thank you! [big smile] See you!". I told you it was random. lol. I'm planning on coming back this weekend for another 30-second conversation. lol. He's gay... How do I know? I simply know. :P

I think I'm getting sentimental lately. And I mean ridiculously sentimental. The other day, while looking for e-cards for Andrew's birthday, I saw this and couldn't stop crying for 15 minutes. That final line and the music simply killed me. Let me know if you liked it, ok? I was also watching tv this evening and saw one of those awful talk-shows where people go to tell everyone about their problems. There was a lovely woman who hadn't spoken to her only sister for 13 years. What made me feel awful was that it was a missunderstanding. Apparently, her sister's husband told his wife that she was telling bad things about her to everyone. But then they showed her sister was also in the studio, and when they met they started to cry and cry and huged each other, and I thought it was such a beautiful moment. Yes, I know it sounds corny but I suppose there's something wrong with my hormones. I wonder if I'm pregnant. lol.

Enough.

I know something about you, you don't know,

Santi