[Nothing left for me to do but DANCE]

My modem has died
Saturday, April 30, 2005

Well, this is just a quick update from my borntown [where I'm spending a long weekend] to tell you that I won't post for a while because my modem died this week for some unknown reason. I didn't have much to tell you about, anyway. So, stay tuned because I'll be back. Sooner or later. I'll miss you. Take care.

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
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Rant
Sunday, April 24, 2005

Current music: Breathe [2 AM], by Anna Nalick.

Ugh. I'm so bored with myself, and everything around me. I had a quarrel with my parents today. I'm sick of hearing them complaining about my behaviour. I know sometimes I'm a little bad-tempered, but you don't have to tell me about it seven times a day. I already know I'm not the nicest boy in town. Shit. I want to change my life. I want to do something exciting. I just don't know how. Well, I'm sure that if I knew I wouldn't have the balls to do it. Have you ever felt like this? I'm sure you have, so I want to hear your advice.

More thoughs:

- It's hard to keep a blog when you're life is utterly boring and routinary.
- I rented The Forgotten. Julianne Moore seriously rocks.
- I hate my hair.
- Michael has left The Bangles. :(

Michael Steele, former bassist of The Bangles

Michael Steele, former bassist of The Bangles

Miss Steele, you're going to be missed.

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
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Do I look like a celebrity?
Thursday, April 21, 2005

Current music: I Think I'm Paranoid, by Garbage.

I said it on my last post and I'll say it again. Why when you're trying to see things positively everything goes wrong? I had that fucking P.E exam last Tuesday and well, it didn't go too well. My teacher is a bitter bitch who likes to annoy people. I should've done an Economics exam on Wednesday, but my teacher didn't allow me to do it. Why? Because I had to go to the dentist and couldn't take that exam, so I asked him if I could do it any other day and he said no. Anyway. By the way, all my wisdom teeth have been removed, so I'm under medication right now, and it fucking kills me. I'm tired and my stomach is constantly moaning, but after all, I'll be fine in a like a week.

Have you ever been compared to a celebrity? I have nothing else to tell you about, so I'll post pics of the people I've been compared to. Opinions are appreciated.

Zeus Tous [son of Spanish actress/singer Sara Montiel] [what?]

Deborah Ombres [presenter] [so I'm a drag queen...]
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Macaulay Culkin o_O
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Charlie Simpson [from UK band Busted] [don't think I look like him... Wouldn't mind to shag him, though lol]

Leonardo Di Caprio in the 90's [I don't think so]

Shaggy from Scooby-Doo [really?]
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Manipulate me,

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
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I'll keep on trying...
Monday, April 18, 2005

Current music: Live, by Jennifer Marks.

So, I'm still trying to be positive about everything, though school keeps on putting me on a situation where being positive it's damn hard. I have a P.E exam tomorrow. Yes, we have P.E exams. My teacher is like the biggest bitch of all time, and thinks we want and need to know the names of every muscle and bone in our bodies, and shit like that. And well, she hates me, and doesn't even bother to hide it. I don't care about it, because I hate her too. lol. I have another exam this Wednesday. Economics. Ugh. My teacher is unpredictable, so we can expect anything from him. I also have to read a book for English [The Ice Harvest by Scott Phillips] and do a project for Literature. As you can see, I'm having an April full of work. And in like one month I'll start my finals. Oh my, I'm already stressed about them. o_O

Thank god we still have Queer As Folk [UK version]. Yeah, I know it's kind of cliched, but it's such a beautiful story. :P Sometimes I feel like Nathan. He's so hopelessly romantic, innocent and nerdy. lol. So whenerver I feel bored or suicidal or negative I watch QAF and think that someday I might live a love story like that. Who knows.

The best is yet to come,

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
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Crisis
Saturday, April 16, 2005

Current music: Free and Lonely Life, by Laura Dawn.

Why when you're trying to see things positively something fucks it up? As you know, I had that Math test on Thursday. I was confidant about it, for once in my life. I studied for it for over a week. And then that motherfucker I have as teacher included things on the test he said he wouldn't, so I'm sure I failed. I'm still angry about it. At least I got a 6.4 in History, which isn't spectacular but at least I passed. I hate school.

I went to see We Don't Live Here Anymore today. It's an indie movie about two unhappy couples in their 30's, Jack [Mark Ruffalo] and Terry [Laura Dern], and Hank [Peter Krause] and Edith [Naomi Watts] Jack and Edith are in love and have an almost serious relationship, while Hank isn't very faithful either, which includes an affair with Terry. They soon find out about this situation, and they all have different reactions... What a great movie. I'm a sucker for films with just a few characters and a lot of dialogue. The actors are superb. Laura Dern, oh my. I can't believe they don't offer more roles like this to this great actress [she's one of my childhood heroes for playing Dr. Ellie Shattler in Jurassic Park :P] Mark Ruffalo is fantastic as always. I loved Naomi Watts. She's so beautiful. :P And what about Peter Krause? Wow. Man, he deserves to be a movie star. He's got the talent, the looks [I kept drooling over him all the time. You know I love men with Beatles-ish hair lol], and a GREAT voice.

Mark, Peter, Naomi and Laura, the stars of We Don't Live Here Anymore.

You don't miss what's not there,

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
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Let's be positive
Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Current music: High Time, by Michael Penn.

I have my Math exam tomorrow. I'm nervous about it, but I've been working on it and I hope to do well. But what if I get nervous and forget everything? It wouldn't be the first time that happens. This morning I met my History teacher in a break and she told me I passed yesterday's test but that my grade wasn't that good. That killed me. I thought I did a great job. Anyway, let's be positive... from now on.

Why do I say I'm going to be positive from now on? Well, this morning someone visited us at school, and I realized how stupid can I be. Two people came to give a conference about injuries on the spinal cord. Yeah, I know it sounds deadly boring, and like half my classmates went home when they knew we would have a conference instead of our normal classes, and I don't blame them. But I never skip classes, plus I'm always interested in knowing about things I don't know, so I thought this would be interesting. And it was. Two people gave us that conference. One was a middle-aged woman who looked exactly like Juliet Stevenson and was really nice, and the other one was a 23 year-old guy. I'll tell you about him. He was on a wheelchair since he was only 17. He fell asleep while driving his motorcycle, and had an accident. I swear I had to bite my lip while he was telling this. I wanted to cry. Not just because it was a sad story. I felt stupid. I'm always sad for silly things like not having a boyfriend or not having enough money to buy everything I want. I've been fighting against eating disorders since I was like 13. Right around that time I wanted to kill myself. Sometimes I feel I have no reasons to live. But then I saw this guy who's been on a wheelchair since his teens and he was so positive about everything that I felt I shouldn't be so pesimistic when something isn't going the way I planned. I've been thinking about him all day long. I truly admire him. I promise I'll try to be more positive from now on. I mean it.

Could it be that the future's going to turn out great?,

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
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Busy week
Monday, April 11, 2005

Current music: Shiver, by Natalie Imbruglia.

I'm afraid it's going to be an stressful week. I have three exams. I'm not worried about the History one, but I'm so nervous about Math and Economics. Math seems much easier now I have a tutor, but you never know. At least it seems this week I won't be tired all the time. Monday went fine. I stayed awake while in class. lol.

I had a great time last Saturday. I went out with my cousin and her friends. And by "her friends" I mean a group of ten girls. lol. We saw Viggo Mortensen, who's filming a movie in Spain, and they went crazy and started running after him. lol. He's fairly attractive, but he's got chicken legs. lol. We had dinner first and then went to some pubs and clubs. In one of them we saw James Hewitt, Lady Di's "official" lover, who was in Madrid because he appeared in a gossip show that night. There was no need to talk to him to know he's stupid. When he realized we recognized him he started to "pose". What a jerk. He had a book about Camilla Parker-Bowles in one of his hands. lol. By the way, congratulations to the happy couple. I've always liked Camilla a lot. Didn't she look great at her wedding? ^^ After that we went to check the clubs and ended up in a karaoke/disco/pub which was great [they even played Sweet Child O' Mine!] Listening to people with lousy voices trying to sing songs like New York, New York or Summer Nights was terribly amusing. It was cool to do something different on a Saturday night. I might start to go out every once in a while... if I find some friends.

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Camilla, I want to be like you

I walk a mile with a smile,

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
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Sex dreams [are made of this]
Saturday, April 09, 2005

Current music: Put A Spell On You, by Sonique.

It's been a weird week. I haven't updated in a while because I've been tired all the time. It seems like I've been bitten by a tse-tse fly. Really. No matter how much hours I've slept. I'm always tired. I normally sleep like 4-5 hours on weekdays and around 8-9 on weekends, and everything works fine. But this week I forced myself to sleep at least 6-7 hours every day, because I thought this way I wouldn't be so tired. It didn't work. Last Thursday I fell asleep while watching Without A Trace. And yesterday I spent the day showing the city to my cousin Cristina and her friends, so when I arrived home I just wanted to sleep. And I did. 11 hours. lol. I lost my favorite night of the week but I'm feeling much better now, which is really cool, cause I might go out tonight with Cristina and her friends. There's nothing confirmed yet. In fact, I'm still waiting for them to text me.

As I told you in the paragraph above, I've spent a lot of time sleeping. And I had not one but TWO sex dreams. Yes, two. Yes, I do agree with you. I also think I'm obssesed. lol. Let me tell you about them. Don't worry, I won't get too dirty. lol. In the first one I was in the house we have in my father's borntown, and I was rushing into a bedroom [by the way, it wasn't my bedroom lol], and then I saw I was with a guy [didn't see his face though] and we started making out, but not just making out, we were like those animals on the Discovery Channel [wasn't that a line from very random but cool song that came out around 2000? lol] But then I heard a noise and knew my dad was coming upstairs, so I started dressing while my dad was asking "what are you doing?". lol. I had the other sex dream one day later. Once again: yes, I do believe I'm obssesed. lol. I was in a very Ikea-ish bedroom... and not alone. I was with the guy I used to like. I had a crush on him for almost three years [pathetic, I know] I was saying something like "I can't do this" and was on my way to leave the place but I suddenly stopped, turned around and started making out with this guy [god, I'm so desperate lol] And after this, all I remember is that I woke up in this really cool bed in that Ikea-ish bedroom with my old crush on the other side of the bed. Then I woke him up and told him I had to go. That's all. I'm especially worried about the latter dream. Why did he appeared in one of my dreams? I haven't thought of him in a long time. Does this means I still like him? I don't know. This shit is bananas. Sorry, I so wanted to say that. lol.

You better stop the things you do,

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
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Positively thinking
Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Current music: Hole In The Head, by Sugababes.

I finally got a Math tutor. I had my first class today. She's really nice. She's 25 and is really patient -- something very important if you want to try to taught me how to understand Math. lol. I'm positive about next week's exam. I've been doing some exercises that I thought I would never learn to do, so that's a good sign. ^^

My cousin Cristina is doing a weekend trip to Madrid with some friends from college. I'm really excited about it. It's the first time she gets to visit me in Madrid and I want to show her some of my favorite places, like Gran Vía, Fnac... and Madrid Rock. lol. I've been telling her about this guy for a long time and she's anxiously waiting to see and rate him. lol. I think she'll find him attractive. Even though we don't usually have the same taste in men, she's also a sucker for guys with Beatles-ish hair and massive sideburns. lol.

I'm getting ready to go out and play,

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
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Watching movies
Sunday, April 03, 2005

Current music: Hold On To Me, by Courtney Love.

I'm not having a special weekend. That's one of the consecuences of having my routine back. Yesterday I went to see Garden State. Yeah, I know it came out months ago, but you know Spain is different. lol. Anyway, I won't start my comment talking about its soundtrack, because I'm a little tired of hearing about it. Don't get me wrong, I loved it and I want to buy it, but it gets a little annoying when you read 17645 reviews mentioning this fact. lol. Anyway. Everything in this movie worked perfectly. It reminded me to the marvelous Lost In Translation: you can relate to their characters, both have a lot of dialogue and include a not very common love story. Natalie Portman was absolutely incredible. I loved every single second of her performance. Zach was fantastic, too. I think he's attractive in an odd way. I mean, he isn't your Hollywood-standard type of guy, but he's got something. I don't know, perhaps it's just that I've always had a thing for guys that seem to be shy, nerdy and/or weird. lol. I love Peter Sarsgaard. He's a chameleon. He has several upcoming films that look promising. I can't wait for Sam Mendes' Jarhead. I hope he gest the attention he deserves for this one.

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Zach and Natalie in one of my favorites scenes in Garden State

I was in a great mood after seeing this movie, so I thought a little shopping wouldn't hurt. lol. I went to Fnac and got Aimee Mann's Live at St. Ann's Warehouse live CD/DVD. It's fantastic. It's surprising and refreshing to see an innocent-looking woman in her 40's swearing like a sailor. lol. It's also great to see extra content on a music DVD. I adore her since I saw Magnolia, over five years ago. I'm really looking forward for her next album. It's called The Forgotten Arm, and it's coming out next month. ^^

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Aimee looking fabulous in a promo pic for The Forgotten Arm

Today wasn't that special either. I've been listening to some albums [Aimee's live CD, Meredith Brooks' Bad Bad One, Courtney's America's Sweethart] and I rented a movie, Secretary, which is really good [and weird] Maggie Gyllenhaal is terrific!!! She's got four movies coming out this year, including Don Roos' Happy Endings, which I can't wait to see, and Bart Freundlich's Trust the Man. James Spader also does a really good performance, and he's one of the most attractive 40-agers out there. And judging from Maggie's bruises, he's really good at spanking. lol.

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Her name's Maggie Gyllenhaal, and she's going to be a star

Good luck exploring the infinite abyss,

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
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I'll keep on trying...
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Let's be positive
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Let's be positive Wednesday, April 13, 2005

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Positively thinking Tuesday, April 05, 2005

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My modem has died
Saturday, April 30, 2005

Rant
Sunday, April 24, 2005

Do I look like a celebrity?
Thursday, April 21, 2005

I'll keep on trying...
Monday, April 18, 2005

Crisis
Saturday, April 16, 2005

Let's be positive
Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Busy week
Monday, April 11, 2005

Sex dreams [are made of this]
Saturday, April 09, 2005

Positively thinking
Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Watching movies
Sunday, April 03, 2005