How stupid can I be
Thursday, September 21, 2006

It's funny and tragic how a guy who seemed like the sweetest thing turned to be just like any other jerk. He met someone else. The story of my life. And he says he's in love even though he's only known him for three days. Oh, good for him. The worst part about this is that I REALLY liked him, and wanted to have something with him. He also used all these cheap lines which people use when they're trying to feel better about breaking someone's heart: "we can still be friends", "you deserve someone better", "this is hard for me, too", etc. I'm so fucking angry I can't even think. Santi wants to hook me up with this other guy who was into me, but I honestly don't want to think about it. Not now.

My exams went well? Well, I guess.

I'm off to my old city to see my friends. I hope running away from Madrid will make me feel better about this.

See you.

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
22:10

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It's raining men, hallelujah
Sunday, September 17, 2006

I'm really sorry for not blogging much lately. I have been busy, and Blogger is being a pain in the ass and it doesn't work properly, so blogging isn't as exciting now, I have to say. But don't worry, I'll keep writing here as long as you read. So, I have a few updates.

My life is being odd since I came back from my brief trip to Amsterdam. I sleep about six or seven hours every night, which is bizarre on weekdays. I'm eating a lot. Not to the point of pure and simple gluttony, but still, it's really weird for me to be willing to eat at least two or even three times a day. And I feel better about myself, and positive and hopeful. So kids, you should make out more often, and your life will have a brand new meaning lol Speaking of making out -- I haven't heard from him since then. He doesn't text me anymore, nor he talks to me when he's online. I've come to the conclusion that he only wants to be a friend with benefits. Well, he doesn't even want to be my friend, so he's a total asshole. I don't think I'll see him when he visits Madrid, let alone kiss him again. He doesn't deserve that.

I have more news about my love life. David, the guy I've liked for three months, is in a relationship now, with a guy who's a total Nazi. David is not allowed to talk to his friends, for instance. The problem is that I still like him a lot, and he says he likes me too. But he's not going to leave that other guy, so I'm better off alone.

You thought that was all I had to say about boys? You're so wrong. I went out with my friend Santi [yeah, we have the same name lol] a couple of days ago. We hung out with his boyfriend and some of his friends. And one of these friends was actually interested in me. But that's not what I wanted to tell you. We went to a gay disco that night. I had a stomache because I had eaten too much, and I was starting to feel bad. But I forgot about everyhting when I saw this really, really cute guy. He came close to me and told me something I don't remember. He returned a couple of minutes later, and asked me something I will never forget: "do you know where the cloakroom is?". lol. We talked for like two minutes. His name is Pablo, he's 18, and he's lived in Barcelona for most of his life even though he was born in Madrid. He's been living in Madrid for only two weeks. And then... we kissed. Oh my god. I haven't kissed many guys, but believe me, he's a great kisser. Santi and his friends wanted to go somewhere else, but I wanted to stay with Pablo, so I asked Santi about it. He said "Don't worry! He's hot! Have fun! Have sex with him!". Santi is really great, as you can see. They left, and Pablo and me danced for a while. But after a while we prefered to go to this couch to... chat? lol. We stayed there for like five hours, until the disco closed its doors. He had to take a bus to come back home, and his bus stop happens to be really close to my place, so we went together. We kissed a bit more, and he said he really likes me. I told him we would see each other again, for sure. We've been texting each other and chatting via msn since then, and I like him too. But I'm a little confused because of David and all. But I'm still willing to see him again, and see what happens.

Isn't this exciting? I have several life-defining exams in a couple of days and I can't stop thinking about a boy. I'm so irresponsible. Not to mention slutty. But I'm excited, and that's what it matters. I'll keep you updated about this. Stay tuned!

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
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Mijn reis aan Amsterdam
Wednesday, September 06, 2006

It seems like things are staring to look interesting in my life. I've just come back from Amsterdam and oh my god, it was a great experience. I did my last exam on Monday morning, and I left after lunch. Just when our plane was about to take off, they found out there was something wrong with it, and it took them almost two hours to fix that problem, so I got to Amsterdam just in time for the show. I met a very nice guy called Sergio in the plane who was also attending the concert, so we shared a taxi. I couldn't contact the guys I was going to meet there, so I stayed with Sergio and his lesbian friends. The show was spectacular. She may be almost 50, and she's been on the business for almost 25 years, but she still knows how to rock. That mash-up of "Music" with The Trammps "Disco Inferno" was the highlight of the concert. "Isaac", "Jump" and of course "Hung Up" were also great. I met my "friends" after the show, including the guy I made out with. They had rented a very cool apartment and they told me I could sleep there. I had to share my bad with Miguel. Yes, the one I kissed about then days ago. We didn't have sex, but we did pretty much everthing else. It was great. You feel powerful when you hear a man moaning while he's whispering your name. They left the morning after, and he said he would call me when he visits Madrid. We said goodbye, and I went downtown to look for a room to spend the night. Amsterdam is so cool. Everything is so clean, and everyone is really nice. I found a room in a youth hostel. Well, I found a bed in a shared room, but I didn't mind, since I was spending one night only there, and the guys I shared the room with were Spanish, and they went to Amsterdam to see Madonna as well, so we got on well. I spent the day with Sergio and his friends. I so need to go back. It's a really great city, and you have so many places to visit. I came back to Madrid today and I'm still over the moon. I can't believe I had the balls to travel abroad on my own. And I spent the night with someone I barely know. I wasn't shy to talk to a lot of stranger. What's happening to me? I don't know, maybe I'm just growing up.

Santi

PS - I passed my exams!!! :)

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Seeing the light at the end of the tunnel...
Friday, September 01, 2006

My exams are going pretty well. I have the last one this Monday and I think I'll do fine. It's a relief. I was really nervous about this because I haven't been as dedicated as I should have. But it's almost over now, and I'm really happy. This Monday has the potential of being the greatest day of my life. I'm finishing my exams at school, visiting Amsterdam, seeing Madonna in concert and I could even make out with someone, too! Tell me it doesn't sound appealing lol

I have nothing else to report on. I've been really focused on studying lately, for a change. I will write my next post as soon as I return from the Netherlands, telling you everything about my trip. I know you're excited, but you'll have to wait a few days ;)

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
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