I have my Math exam tomorrow. I'm nervous about it, but I've been working on it and I hope to do well. But what if I get nervous and forget everything? It wouldn't be the first time that happens. This morning I met my History teacher in a break and she told me I passed yesterday's test but that my grade wasn't that good. That killed me. I thought I did a great job. Anyway, let's be positive... from now on.

Why do I say I'm going to be positive from now on? Well, this morning someone visited us at school, and I realized how stupid can I be. Two people came to give a conference about injuries on the spinal cord. Yeah, I know it sounds deadly boring, and like half my classmates went home when they knew we would have a conference instead of our normal classes, and I don't blame them. But I never skip classes, plus I'm always interested in knowing about things I don't know, so I thought this would be interesting. And it was. Two people gave us that conference. One was a middle-aged woman who looked exactly like Juliet Stevenson and was really nice, and the other one was a 23 year-old guy. I'll tell you about him. He was on a wheelchair since he was only 17. He fell asleep while driving his motorcycle, and had an accident. I swear I had to bite my lip while he was telling this. I wanted to cry. Not just because it was a sad story. I felt stupid. I'm always sad for silly things like not having a boyfriend or not having enough money to buy everything I want. I've been fighting against eating disorders since I was like 13. Right around that time I wanted to kill myself. Sometimes I feel I have no reasons to live. But then I saw this guy who's been on a wheelchair since his teens and he was so positive about everything that I felt I shouldn't be so pesimistic when something isn't going the way I planned. I've been thinking about him all day long. I truly admire him. I promise I'll try to be more positive from now on. I mean it.

Could it be that the future's going to turn out great?,

Santi