I feel like shit. It's not for having all these examsn next week, it's just for everything. I've been living in this city for almost a year, and I still feel like if I didn't live here. It's hard to explain. It's like if I was spending a few months here, just waiting to come back to my old city. It sucks. I mean, Madrid is a great place, but sometimes people tends to be a little too cold. I suppose it's the big-city attitude. I really miss my friends. Three days ago Marina turned 18, and we talked on the phone for a while. She told me that "the group" as it used to be doesn't exist anymore. I already saw it coming the last time I went there. Vicky had found some new [and rather stupid] friends to hang out with, so she hadn't seen the group in a while, so when we, the six of us, were together again, it just wasn't the same. Don't get me wrong, I'm not against the idea of Vicky having new friends, but I just don't like she doesn't call our friends anymore because she's found a new group. And there's another problem. Marina and Fran had a quarrel months ago, and they haven't talked to each other since then. I'm really sad about this. I understand why Fran got mad, but I think he should just forgive her. Miguel turned 18, too. Today, actually. And while I was texting him I realised how much I miss his witty sense of humour, and how much I would like to be there to celebrate his 18th birthday. And every time I talk to Julia she tells me she really misses me. And I know it's true. Fuck, why did I have to move? And why did it take me so long to find them? I think I'm going crazy. Every little detail makes me remember them. Last night I was watching MTV's Disco 2000. We used to watch this show almost every Friday and Saturday night when we were together. And then I saw Britney's Toxic. Man, that killed me. Yeah, it's hard to believe but I ctually felt moved while watching a Britney video. lol. We used to love this song/video when it came out and every it was on tv we started to dance and sing the song. It was so cool. I miss little things like that. I'll stop now. I hate when I act like this. Sorry.

You stand in the line just to hit a new low,

Santi