I think I'm paranoid
Thursday, August 24, 2006

I don't know if it's because my exams are getting closer, but I'm in a permanent state of complete craziness. I can't sleep, and I can't eat. And I just hope everything goes according to my plans, but I'm scared to death. Let's be positive for a change.

David, the guy I like, opened up to me yesterday, and I'm still shocked. Not only by what he said, but also because he had never been this honest to me. He told me about his troubled past [we all have one! lol], and sounded so fragile I almost cried. He's still unsure about what to do with this other guy who's after him. He wants to "test" him first by telling him his "secret" and see his reaction. I know this will make me sound like a bitch, but I hope he goes all outraged and refuses to see him again lol No, seriously, I'd love to have anything with him but it's not a big deal if we're just friends, or friends with benefits, or whatever. He's a good guy after all :)

The other day I was at this store which had plenty of second-hand movies which were still sealed or in fairly good condition. But then I realized that like the 90% of the movies they had there were porn. I was terrified. There were a handful of dirty old men there, and it was disgusting. When I was at the counter paying for my movies [I got "Street Fighter II. The Animated Movie" and "Neon Genesis Evangelion: The End of Evangelion"], I overheard the shopkeeper having a very deep conversation with another man about their favorite pornos, and it was disgusting. I have nothing against people who watch these movies, but you could tell that those two spend most of their free time watching porn, and that's sad.

Santi

[Darkdancer] danced away @
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